Has is been a month since I wrote that last post? There is no way...
Anyway, I found the words below going through my head Saturday morning at some point. We haven't sang this song in a while at church, and I don't think that I've even let all of the words completely sink in:
O Lord, when all my hopes and plans
Are taken from my hands
And I cannot see the way
I will rest in Your sovereign plan
And bless Your gracious hand
I know Your promise stands
That I’ll see Your goodness in this land
Okay, so I can definitely identify with lines 1-3. It seems I woke up one day and they had all happened overnight. Lines 4 and 5 are ones that I have to strive towards daily. I don't want to rest (where is the balance between rest and action, dang it) and I'm so busy whining to God that I don't have time-and don't have the correct attitude-to bless Him.
Lines 6 and 7 are the ones that give me hope. There are times that I really doubt that God will ever answer my prayers in the affirmative-after all, He doesn't have to, right? I mean, God would be no less glorious if He never gave my wife and I children, or if I never served in vocational ministry again. If I never teach one class, He will still be holy and altogether worthy of more than I can ever give to Him. Eternal communion with Him is more than I deserve; how could I expect that He would give me more than that?
I believe that I shall look upon the goodness of the Lord
in the land of the living!
Wait for the Lord;
be strong, and let your heart take courage;
wait for the Lord!
I know that God has put desires in my heart that are good. Give me courage, Father. Strengthen me to wait on You.
Oh yeah, by the way, the message at church yesterday was on patience.